Thursday, September 20, 2012

Lately I have really been missing the fellowship that you get with Church or Bible Study. On Monday last week, my birthday, I mentioned to God that I would like to find a Bible Study to attend. We are rarely home on weekends so don't have a Sunday church home. That night a friend of mine, sent me a message via Facebook saying that she'd just started a bible study that night and thought of me. She asked me if I would like to attend that bible study with her. I couldn't believe it! God answered my prayer sooo quickly! This past Monday I got ready to go to the bible study, it is a Beth Moore class so I knew I would enjoy it. I had a bit of trouble getting there! Got behind every slow-poke on the road, with me wanting to yell... "Get out of the way.. stupid slow-poke... I'm trying to get to Bible Study!" I had to laugh at myself, but that is why I don't have a fish on the back of my car. Then I went to the WRONG church! Then it was storming so badly with my wipers on high speed I still could barely see where I was going. I did eventually show up at the right church and was only 10 minutes late, they were just wrapping up the prayer so I didn't miss any of the actual Study. Since I knew the Study was on Deuteronomy I started reading the beginning of the book so as to not be too far behind. I read about Moses and how he didn't get to enter the Promise Land because of his disobedience. I prepared my mind and heart to hear Beth Moore talk about how our disobedience is the cause for our not being able to have all that God wants us to have. Instead, we learned 3 verses, all 3 containing the word "Love" and all 3 having different meanings in Hebrew. I was reminded that God loves me with a love that joins me to Him, it's emotional. I was reminded that God wrapped His love around me and pulled me out of the pits! He delights in me and His love is faithful, steadfast and He CAN'T QUIT LOVING ME! So there I was in Bible Study,crying, with NO KLEENEX! Next week I will be more prepared and come with plenty of tissue. We can't begin to fathom God's love! We judge God by our human standards, we say we can trust Him, but then expect Him to disappoint us like those here on earth we have loved and trusted only to be "kicked in the gut" by them. We listen to the hurtful words those that claimed to love us have said to us. Like, "you aren't worth fighting for". We can't understand God's unconditional Love, and that HE says I AM worth fighting for! How Grateful I am that God sees me as "worth it". I've sure tested Him in my life. Isn't it grand that God gives us His love freely? It's not something we can earn, like our salvation, it's a gift, a free gift to us, we only have to accept it!