I lost my mother to cancer this past August. It was a sad, sad time for my family. I miss her terribly and guess I will continue to, like I still miss my dad, grandmother and sister-in-law.
Yesterday, my best friend heard those words that every parent fears more than anything else in the whole world, "your son is dead". How do you survive? how do you go on breathing?
Jason was working the pipeline in Montana, he'd been working it for several years now and wouldn't be going back after the next lay-off which would be coming any time now. He had a job waiting for him back home, in Newnan. In April he would have a wife and adorable little boy. We had a house rented right on the beach, a huge one with 7 bedrooms to hold all the family! What a party we were planning!!! Instead, we will be all together here in Newnan full of sorrow. How can your heart hurt so badly without collapsing?
His fiance' couldn't reach him Saturday, so called a friend of his and asked them to tell Jason to CALL her! There he discovered Jason dead.
Jason had so much life to live. He was the type of person that excelled in everything he did, he was smart, out-going and full of life. Jason attracted people like honey does flies, you could not help but to like Jason instantly. One tiny case of bad judgment and all his future plans are gone.
I can't quit crying. Jason was like one of my own children, he grew up with my kids. Our families went camping together several times a year. He's family to me. We will have to survive one day at a time. How I dread the funeral, and watching Chris, Georgia, Tim and Christopher face this horrible tragedy. How I will miss his bear hugs when he sees me.
I just read a book " The Noticer". The author describes wisdom as the ability to see the consequences of your actions. Unfortunately we often acquire wisdom as we make mistakes. If only we WOULD gain wisdom from the mistakes of others.
I will see Jason again one day when I go home to be with the Lord. Until then, I will miss him so very much.
1 comment:
Hi Lynn,
First of all, I want to say I am really excited about reading your blog. I am a blogger and I {{heart}} reading other people's blogs. I can't wait to take some time and read more of yours.
However, most importantly right now, I am just devastated and heartbroken for Chris about the loss of her son. I just can't believe it. :*( I have always loved Chris so much. She has always been such a sweet and kind friend to me, especially when she was still here in Newnan. I was really sad when she moved, but we've kept in touch here and there through email. However, it has been quite a while since we have spoken, except to forward various email 'funnies' and such back and forth.
Lynn, I would REALLY, REALLY appreciate it if you would PLEASE tell Chris that we are SO very sorry about her loss. Please let her know that David and I are thinking about her and doing a lot of praying for her and her entire family. Unfortunately, I am very sick myself and can't get out, but I'd still like to know if she needs anything. If she does, I will do whatever I can to help see that her needs are met.
I know this has to be hard for you, too, since Chris is your best friend and you were so very close to Jason. I will be keeping you close in prayer as well.
In the meantime, I will be coming back to read more of your blog. Is this where I can come for updates, like on the arrangements and such, or is there someplace else? I'd like to know what is going on and how to reach her. Thanks so much. Take care.
{{{HUGS}}}
In Christ Alone~
Teresa <><
P.S. I have a blog of my own and I would LOVE for you to visit it when things have slowed back down some and you are up to it. I hope to see you there later.
** My blog about my life and walk with Christ while dealing with an incredibly rare illness called, Dysautonomia ~
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